In the past couple of weeks I have been trapped in my own powerlessness, which made it impossible to squeeze any words out. I would find myself sitting in front of a blank paper, hoping to write something, anything, but the words wouldn’t come out very easily.
It was frustrating that when I was full of ideas I didn’t even know where to start or which one to pick and still, the moment when I would sit down and take pen and paper into my hands, my brain would just “shut down”.
In these situations I would often take out my diary and consider all the ideas I had written down and which I thought would be good, but none of them would seem to be right one.
“Žana, you need something new and different. Something fresh. You need a new perspective”, I told myself.
I was aware that I was in a state known as creative block. The first thing I had to do to get rid of the barriers was to understand why the creative block was happening, what the causes were and how I could get rid of it.
In my case the main “culprit”was pressure which had snuck into my mind uninvited and unnoticed.
University and some exams I still had to take until the end, as well as goals I had set for myself and various expectations I and others around me had, had taken their toll on me.
Torn between what was considered to be “best” for me and what I wanted to do, I knew I was at a crossroads. Additionally, numerous questions in my head were confusing me even more.
But then, all of a sudden realized: all these thoughts that had taken over my mind in the past couple of days had been preventing me from my main source of creativity. They were keeping me away from who I really was. I couldn’t force anything – but what I could do was let the resistance go and allow the inspiration to break the blockage. And that is what I did.
What helped me in removing the barriers that were preventing me to progress was meditation. And more writing.
There are no rules for dealing with a creative block.
What has worked for me might not work for everyone. The only important thing is to find the right method that will help get rid of it.
Keep in mind that everything is a process – creating is a process, and while it lasts you can learn a lot about yourself. Just be courageous enough to keep going.